Rumi and the dishes!

Dishes and Laundry are like thoughts, they never stop or go away!

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

Can we treat the dishes like an honourable guest?

The more I resist the normal household duties, the more heaviness and inertia come in.

Oh, I think I’ll just go and have a nap rather than do the dishes for example. But this doesn’t make the dishes go away, which is what something inside thinks it wants. It just makes the resistance/suffering grow bigger. Just like the pile of dishes that grows every day of not dealing with them! Just as everything we try and hide from inside grows bigger and will continue to influence us consciously or not…… until we stop, take notice and let BE.

If the dishes for example can be done or not done in the space of a 5 year old playing with bubbles and the miraculousness of IT all……noticing the energy of joy that underneath in the clean dishes or dirty…..or I could put it this way……let a ‘doing’ without the sticking to the ‘thinking commentary in the head happen…..or let a ‘doing’ without believing the continuous commentary in the head……

What do you think… that enlightenment? hohohohoho

My sadhana (spiritual practice) often is to notice the resistance to the dishes , drop into it physically in the body, feel the energy inside and get to know what it is all about. Let IT inform me. The part (or habit or movement of energy) that has been addicted to pain and suffering loves the resistance and attempts to keep it going by letting the pile grow bigger.

If i stop and notice…. what is not resisting the dishes? Hang out in THAT!
I’ve noticed if I do the dishes with something inside sticking to the thinking thoughts that are usually judgements, or wishing to be somewhere else kind of feel = suffering.

If I simply do the dishes then all is ok. It is like the ‘me’ isn’t’ doing them. If the ‘me’ commenting is in the driving seat, then the energy of resistance or suffering enters in.

If i wait until the energy comes to do them rather than forcing the issue….than all is ok. Even feeling the resistance is ok. Can’t even resist the resistance as it is often HERE.

I’ve discovered that if I do the dishes when the energy is simply present to do them… it is different than believing that I have to do them right now….

There appears to be kind of a free feeling inside, when i am not stuck in the resistance of dishes, dinner, laundry etc. Believe it or not when doing the household duties lately, I’ve noticed a real laughing space of peace – . Can’t say always… but moments are peeking through more often. When there are no distractions it becomes like a meditation. Meditation on dishes or no dishes! Is there any difference?

.Dishes are like thoughts…..

And then….. not even labeling dishes, negative feelings, patterns as distractions, or bad…just what is arising…

For me the important thing seems to be to STOP and NOTICE! Do I want to live with suffering/resisting inside driving every living moment of life or freedom in the driving seat? WOW!!!

Thoughts/feelings/patterns come up and can be noticed without the ‘stickiness’ more of a ‘oh what is this’ or ‘here you are again’ as Rumi said in his exquisite poem. They pass through or get stuck like a huge pile of dishes that grows and the more the ‘I’ takes ownership, the more pain…..

yahoo! the sink is clean today!

off to learn how to downhill ski …ahahahah theres an interesting place to see  fears emerge – as i’m screaming down the hill in snowplow!!

Enlightenment – Simply Resting!

Don’t Miss the Stop Sign written by Mukti

Landscape by MuktiEnlightenment is consciously being that which is entirely unmoving and yet moves all things. In order to know what is unmoving, consciously, one must end all investment in movements of mind and attend to what is always and already stopped.

When one no longer invests in movements of mind, the searchlights of your attention withdraw back to source. Abiding as source is true stopping.

This return to source—whether by letting energies withdraw and recede from outer attentions or by tracing movements of mind back to their origin—is the way Home.

Often in spirituality, there are teachings that assert the need to focus attention on given objects of perception. You may have been taught to focus your attention on a goal, a mantra, your breath, the third eye, the hara, or on sensation, but it is the very assertion of focus and the assertion of the focuser, the “me,” that keeps you forever at a seeming distance from the root of attention: your Self as pure Awareness.

In your natural state as Oneness, there is no need to focus in order to discover yourself—any more than point A can know itself by focusing on point B. Point A can only know itself by letting all focus, attention, and searching subside back to its origin.

This is an open invitation for a simple resting, a return to the ground of being you have always known. ©Adyashanti
Mukti’s  website is

Mukti is coming to Ontario,  Canada in September 2008!  Info will be posted in the Spring at as well as her website.

Pecan Puffs – Grandmother’s recipe for enlightened taste buds!

My Nana used to make these over 40 years ago and I admit I make them every year for the family.

Her old cookbook describes them as RICH and DEVASTATING and it is true. They are also very easy to make. I challenge you to meditate on the flavour of these! Also…. when you are rolling out the cookies…. only roll one at a time….. there…. another Christmas meditation for you….hohoho!
Since I am immersed in the baking of cookies and wrapping presents, thought I’d share this recipe. I love the simplicity of the recipe and I usually triple the recipe and they turn out just fine.

Here is my daughter who loves these cookies. Her big brother took this picture. She had just had a make=-up lesson from the big girls at dance class.

an enjoyer of Christmas cookies!

Makes about 32 1 1/2 inch cookies.

Beat until soft:
1/2cup butter
Add and blend until creamy:
2 tablespoons white sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla
Measure, then grind in a nut grinder or I use a cuisinart:
1 cup pecans
Sift before measuring:
1 cup unbleached white flour

Stir the pecans and the flour into the butter mixture. Roll the dough into small balls. I use a heaping teaspoon for size. Place them on a greased baking sheet. Bake them in a slow over 300degrees for about 45 minutes. Roll the puffs while hot in :

totally decadent Confectioner’s sugar (icing sugar)

The Holy Grail

Dear Journeyer,

Have you made love to empty
and soulless things for too long?

I know that you get a little crazy
when you have not paid attention
to the Heart inside you heart
and like a man in the desert
dying of thirst
you see things
that aren’t really there.

If your heart is thirsty for Love and God
then turn around now and
go back to where you came from
back to the simple ground of your origin
inside the inside of this
flowering and Radiant Emptiness.
© Adyashanti from My Secret is Silence.

Hey, we are all questing for the holy grail in our own ways don’t you think?

Scootie looking for his  elusive holy grail - a fish.

This is my dog Scootie looking for his Holy Grail – a frog.

Honestly, I’d probably be dead now if it wasn’t for all the so called spiritual seeking.

Even though the seeking didn’t ‘get ‘ the me‘ anywhere…hohohoho….it kept the body alive. As well as created a huge ‘ spiritual ego’. (that is not what i had consciously intended) Humbling.

The spiritual search can still be an escape like drinking alot of beer and tranquilizers…it just doesn’t wreck the body. I’ve come to see that much of what I’ve done in life are things that numb life….whether so called spiritual or otherwise. Everything is meant to give us temporary relief from feeling ourselves and really being here….. wild eh!!! We’re becoming ‘One’ with our escapes. Even a good movie helps us forget our life for a few hours. I love movies – I do it all the time myself except when I don’t.

Its all over the world…. look for yourself…….check it out……what do you spend your free time ‘doing’? Do you blob out in front of the TV every night for hours ‘letting the TV think for you because it is the only thing you can think to do to get a break?”

What do you want a break from? What do I want a break from?

My thoughts, feelings and the pain inside?

When we start to suffer, it tells us something
very valuable. It means that we are not seeing
the truth, and we are not relating from the truth.
It’s a beautiful pointer…it never fails.
© Adyashanti from My Secret is Silence.

It is like I have lived most of this life on some level trying to escape it and the world supports the escaping.

What if I STOP and turn around.

Your intrinsic nature is still as pure and clear
as it was before you ever took this birth.
If you would just turn your attention away from
the various trance-inducing states created
by your mind and realize the intrinsically
innocent and pure nature of the unseen seer,
you would at once experience a great relief
and freedom. © Adyashanti from My Secret is Silence.

True honesty – True Truth – Satya- is radically intense. Oh my God, on a relative level , how often every day do you not speak the truth out of fear or don’t even listen inside yourself to the Truth that is being quietly whispered to YOU? Radical Honesty.

Is most of humanity afraid of really BEING alive?

Maybe we can simply notice and drop into the great relief and freedom that is already HERE underneath everything.

This blogging thing for me – is like teaching myself. As I write, it helps to come to the space of ‘great relief’.

Thank- YOU and my deepest Gratitude to ‘the great relief ‘ .

Hey what if instead of calling IT the Holy Grail back in time, they had called it












“In the heart of a human being,

emptiness becomes love.

When we touch that Source,

instantly the love is present.

Literally, the divine becomes human

and the human becomes divine. ” © Adyashanti




This picture says it all. Adya has it at his retreats usually. A person in the US. drew it, I am sorry I don’t know the name of the artist. But deep gratitude to YOU – whoever YOU ARE. © the artist.

Here I go repeating myself. But hey thats the nature of the human mind isn’t it! All these years as a ‘striving yogi’ I always thought and believed that the human-ness we were supposed to get rid of, suppress, hide from, you name it. My God just don’t express it!



What JOY ! Touch the Source……….

……..What a relief!

Check it our for yourself!!!! even for 1/4 of a second!





“Enlightenment isn’t knowing, it is being.” ©Adyashanti


My God all these years I had assumed I knew what enlightenment was and strove towards it or so I thought in my blindness.



“The mind can’t tell you what is real.” ©Adyashanti


but the whole world sure thinks it can!


Enlightenment is just seeing things

the way they are. ©Adyashanti

Yeah,  the only problem is that we need to realize that we are ‘seeing’ through our

conditioning and the colour of everyones glasses are different.  Wow to truly ‘see’ things as they are!



Some wonderful quotes by Adyashanti I appreciate and felt like sharing and

in gratitude.


Just for a moment, let yourself just be here.

Let yourself stop becoming more, or better,

or different.



Nothing about you has to change.

The only thing that has to change

is that you stop trying to change.

then your true nature can spontaneously come forth.


When you’ve accepted yourself as a human being,

you’ve accepted the whole universe.


Spirituality is a deconstruction project.

Truth is what is left when the mind disassembles itself.


If you take this far enough,

you are going to lose your spiritual world.


all the above quotes are © copyright 2007 Adyashanti. All rights reserved.

I find myself apologizing for being so into Adya’s teachings, but wow,

they cut through everything for me and I’m so thrilled to have them blow my life apart……even though it is often like a hurricane inside.

go to for more…..


The Big Lie – re: the ‘Doing’ of Spiritual Seeking!

The Big Huge Lie – re: the ‘Doing’ of Spiritual Seeking!

Do you know what the big lie is?

I’ve been taught to believe as a spiritual seeker ….that I must purify my mind, body and heart before I can ‘earn’ peace. Peace or enlightenment must be ‘attained’ by the hard work of doing many practices and being ‘good at them’. I was taught that only a few chosen special people can become enlightened or awake and they of course were ‘perfect’ in all ways.


If you think yes, then I challenge you to prove it with your own understanding and experience and not by something you heard, read or were taught. Check it out for yourself.


Parts of me still believe the lie, so I have to keep meeting those parts as they arise. Just stop believing all the thoughts! Oh my God, the freedom! It is possible?
….it feels like something becoming unplugged and all the energy tied up in a certain belief kind of explodes out quietly as I write this…. leaving JUST THIS.


Ok, obviously I haven’t stopped believing all thoughts as I am still writing…..

Been taking knitting lessons these past few weeks….. funny… as I knit and knit a sweater rather obsessively… of the ‘me’ inside are unraveling…. Unraveling layers and layers …of seeking and learned survival modes of relating to life’s situations and the ways I relate with people. Some layers fall away and feel like a humungous ahhh yes! others… are like having to have a tooth pulled….. it needs to be pulled out to stop suffering, but I’m so afraid to go to the dentist!!!!
I find it interesting, though at times unsettling, to see the origins of suffering/ thoughts/feelings stuck inside of the belief systems that still have a hold on how I relate to life and the people in it. Intense…A lot of stuff I honestly would prefer not to remember, but it feels really good to let things drop away.

For thousands of years the teachers have been preaching to us to perform austerities of all sorts and the process will make us better, more spiritual, more likeable, nicer, happier, peaceful etc.

What if they were all wrong? I mean really wrong!

What the heck is ‘spiritual’ anyways? I realize I have been believing other people’s ideas about what is ‘spiritual’ and have been for many many years, trying to live up their ideas that had become my own. All uninvestigated thoughts, just taken to be true because someone said them or wrote them down thousands of years ago. Wow! So cool when I started to investigate, really look.

What if we don’t have to fast, do yoga, meditation, be a vegetarian, have 30 years of therapy, get rid of all emotions that aren’t positive, be angelically calm and always smiling never sad, never angry, actually get rid of any kind of emotions and always be in a high state of bliss and love, have bliss and love divinely emanating from our whole being like the smell/aura of cigarette smoke around a smoker. Oh my God, I have spent thousands of hours ‘doing’ stuff I considered would ‘get me somewhere’ else other than here. The somewhere else was a better more improved so called enlightened ‘me’. I thought. There is that believed thought again!

I’ve noticed that all beliefs are just thoughts that are sticky. Something inside us, thinks the thoughts are true and turns them into beliefs. Really cool, to investigate into that stickiness itself. Check it out for yourself. What is this sticky or clingy energy?. Where is it in the body…? Who/what experiences it?


Beliefs are what cause all the wars! Has there ever been a war that wasn’t due to beliefs.
Even all the words I’ve just written here…. they can’t be believed. Good, bad, right, wrong… it seems that all beliefs whether so called positive or negative create suffering. Now the yogis use the word’attachment’. They say don’t be attached to your thoughts, feelings, people, places, basically anything…They taught people like myself that it is bad to be attached to people and things for example. For years I listened to that kind of teaching without really investigating what actually does ‘attachment’ mean. I misunderstood all these years and tried to fit myself into box of other people’s ideas….. WOW. No Blame…
Man, I think the spiritual people can become the most  judgemental, repressed, raging,  fundamental a..holes around. Did I write that? How unspiritual of me!
Guess ultimately I am talking about me – as ‘they’ say life is all a projection eh? Why do you think I started out on the so called spiritual path? Because  I wanted to be free of all the humanness that I encountered here. Big misunderstanding…..

Why can’t we just let ourselves be as we are and let others be as they are? Uninvestigated thoughts/beliefs that’s why! How about unlearning them all…. There is the freedom under it all.

So, despite all the rambling I just did, did you figure out the big lie?



The big lie is that we have to DO ‘something’ in order to become something. Is it True?

Being Yoga!

I appear to enjoy rambling and love to ask questions that silence this thinking brain……

What in life is not learned?



What is not a thought?

Can LIFE be experienced or lived without perceiving IT through words, ideas, beliefs, concepts, names?

wild geranium


What is relationship without thoughts made up of words, made up by humans? Who is having a relationship?

chickens’ relationships?


What is IT that experiences LIFE?

Can we come to know IT without using theories, books, teachings, teachers, traditions?

Who/what comes to know or INTO knowing?

incredible purple lupin

Can we live without the energy of ‘DOING’ running the show? Or at least notice it!

Check out what the energy of ‘doing’ feels like inside… check out what ‘doing something for an end goal feels like inside compared to playing a game with a child for example with no goal, just pure enjoyment.

What if we just STOP absolutely all ‘doing’?

enjoying life!

Even to say ‘I do yoga’. Sure that is true in the relative sense, but how about deeper than that?


this was me playing….thanks for the indulgence…….